It’s finally February and, of course, I felt a Valentine’s Day inspired outfit was most appropriate for this month’s first post. With Love Day quickly approaching, I’ve been unavoidably thinking a lot about the subject. I’ll also be turning 29 this month and although society may take pity on an umarried woman my age, I can’t stop thinking about how lucky I am.
As most CF readers know, I moved to North Carolina following a pretty crushing break up. I then spent three years putting myself back together, building this blog and truly learning the meaning of, “independent.” Last year, I left my safe little “boyless” bubble and started dating again, which was honestly terrifying. Although I’m happy to have someone special in my life now, I can’t help but feel appreciative of the love for myself that I’ve gained over these past few years.
As scary as it was for me to start over, I’m so happy that I was able to experience that level of independence. I always thought that finding someone new would help me move on from my ex, but really it was finding myself. Knowing that I’m able to take care of myself and create my own happiness gives me a peace of mind that I couldn’t have ever imagined. It’s knowing this that allows me to be more brave, more comfortable and more myself in a new relationship.
For the past few years, I’ve chosen to celebrate myself on Valentine’s day. Usually with a nice meal, donuts, new shoes or singing Ed Sheeran songs in my apartment with no shame. It’s a tradition that I hope to continue, regardless of my relationship status. Most people celebrate their significant other on Valentine’s Day, but I’ll forever celebrate the journey I took to start loving myself.